For the first time since I started, I have nothing prepared for this week’s post. Note I say “prepared”—I have plenty of topics lined up that I want to write about, yet I haven’t committed to any of them. My online friends will also have noticed that I’ve not been commenting on blogs, nor Tweeting.
What’s Going On?
I’ve spoken about my job in the past. In 2016, I was employed as part of a project team to help roll out a new software system. It was due to go live 3 months after I started. I grant, this timeline was never going to be achievable, but there were reasons for it. We are now in April 2018, and the project go-live has just been pushed back yet again. Not only that, but we no longer have a new date. It’s entirely possible that 2019 is on the cards. I like the work I do. I believe in the product and I get that we don’t want to be putting something in that isn’t ready. But I’m frustrated. There’s nothing in this process that is within my control. I can just hold on tight, keep working hard, and go along for the ride.
My plan for some time has been to see this project in, support it for 6–12 months, then look for a part-time job. I’ve approached our Director twice to ask. While she’s been supportive, it isn’t possible due to the work required on the project. I respect that. Also, I agonised over going for an excellent part-time job late last year. One of the concerns for me was that we were heading towards our go-live (at the time), and I dealt with massive guilt about not staying to see it through. Of course, the go-live has been moved twice since then. While I didn’t get the job, that is a lot of wasted guilt, and I’ve learned a lesson from that.
I think this year has established that Mr. ETT and I aren’t quite on the same page about what we want for our future together. Or, if we are, we aren’t in agreement as to how best to meet our goals. We still have not sat down to talk about it, which is me being cowardly. I will pin him down today and see what we come up with. I suspect we’ve reached Mr. ETT’s level of tolerance as far as cutting spending goes. And you know what? If that’s the case, it’s OK. This is a partnership. I don’t mind working—I just want to do less of it. In fact, I’m happy to reach for plain old FI, and leave the RE. As long as I can be a part-time employee.
I was also reading over my Kiama post, and I noted again how we want to leave Sydney. We’d like to head to a regional centre. While we have family to support here for now, one of the issues is that finding a job equivalent to mine is rare in these places. And because they are in the country, once people have a job, they don’t leave! Of course, I may be lucky enough to find a business that will allow me to work remotely, but surprisingly, the industry I work in has been a slow adopter.
When I stop and look at all I’ve written above, I can see it for what it is—excuses. Excuse after excuse. I can’t tell you the number of people we know who have moved lately. AwP moved down from Queensland to NSW. We’ve had friends move 2 streets from their old address, while others have moved countries. Many are walking away from their jobs, most don’t have a new one lined up, and it’s worked out for them, so it can’t be impossible.
Looking to the future, I need the ability to be able to work where I live. Rather than relying on an oversaturated job market, I decided to create my own opportunities, which means working for myself. The truth is, I have started a small business. Yes, it’s a side hustle at the moment, given I’m working full-time and still volunteering and doing most of the other activities I identified in my time study. I wasn’t planning on starting until the project was live. However, the opportunity presented itself, and now I’m glad I began when I did, because… delays. Instead of waiting and playing by someone else’s timeline, I’m building my own. It’s an excellent situation. Although I may be time poor, my full-time job can bankroll my startup costs, and I can take my time to do things properly. There’s very little risk attached.
What there is, though, is an enormous amount of work. Setting up a business is almost like building a house. There are a myriad of moving pieces, and it’s important to spend time on the foundations to ensure everything works out. Also, I love learning new things, which means I’ve allowed myself to be swallowed up in learning all I can, designing systems and processes, and planning. This in turn means I haven’t spent the 6 hours a week I usually spend, preparing this blog post. I’m sorry, dear readers. Now I’m here writing (the night before), I remember just how much I love doing this.
What About The Blog?
It’s staying. As I said, I’ve still got plenty in the personal finance space I’d like to write about. No matter what Mr. ETT and I agree on, we’ll still need to keep an eye on our spending and set goals, so the monthly reports will continue. What I am doing is giving myself permission to break the strict 8 day posting cycle I’ve been on since the beginning. Being the contrary bugger that I am, now I’ve got permission, I’ll probably continue to stick to it. If not, though, there will be a minimum of two posts a month. This might give me some more space to get back to commenting on others’ blogs, and back to Twitter. I enjoy both activities, and I’ve missed being part of the community in this way.
Here’s to trying new things, and taking tiny steps towards building a new future!