The End Result of my Job Conundrum Is…

Six days after the job closed, I was offered an interview. Because I hate email, I don’t log in every day, which meant that:

  • They sent me the invitation to interview on Tuesday afternoon.
  • I opened it on Wednesday morning before work.
  • The interview time was 10am Thursday!

The Job Interview

I was not expecting things to happen so quickly. I still had to go to work on Wednesday, so spent all my train trip time and lunch reviewing and preparing. That night I continued preparation, along with taking an hour to fill out all the paperwork.

I also had to ask/notify my referees. I’d been holding off, because if I didn’t get an interview it was a moot point and I didn’t want people to know. I approached the project manager in my current job, and he was shocked. I felt so bad; this had been what I was dreading. Nevertheless, he agreed to act for me. I also approached my old manager, who was fine, and encouraging. She reiterated what Mr. ETT has been saying, along with everyone who commented on my post, thank you.

The interview went well, but I felt like they needed someone stronger in a particular skill set. I have that skill set, but not at a high enough level for their needs. I was both disappointed and glad at the same time. It sounds like an exciting and challenging job, not to mention the conditions of being close to home and part-time. I left the interview and went to work for the rest of the day.

Reflections

Was this whole exercise a waste of time and energy? It certainly got me thinking and worrying. I thought about it every single day after I applied. On reflection, I don’t believe it was a waste (except for the darn paperwork)! It’s given me an idea of where I need to develop if I want to pursue a similar job. It made me look hard at the job I currently have and realise that despite the travel and working full-time, I like what I do. I like my job. If I were to leave now, I’d be leaving something unfinished and I’ve discovered it is important to me not to do that. I appear to value following through on what I’ve stated I would do. It surprised me that I would value this more that “the perfect job”, but there you go. We’re always learning about ourselves.

Also, with great timing, a Bunny Buddhism tweet appeared that has helped me to process this.

Bunny Buddhism Tweet - Each time I let go of a carrot, I experience another level of freedom.

I’m going to stick to my original plan. I don’t want to know about any more jobs until it fits my timeline. I’m going to concentrate on appreciating what I have, do my best to accomplish the task I’ve been employed to do, and let go of the carrot of part-time work for now. We’ll come back in 12 months time and see where I’m at. I’m letting go to find some peace.

12 thoughts on “The End Result of my Job Conundrum Is…

  1. Roz says:

    Nothing like these experiences to clarify what we really want. Great that you put yourself out there and now you have a plan for the next 12 months that you are at peace with.

    • Thanks Roz. I really do feel better about it. It was bad enough asking my referee at work, I think if I had to tell them I was resigning I would feel physically sick!

  2. Thanks for the update!

    I’m glad you went through the process and were able to make the decision that the role wasn’t as perfect as it had first seemed rather than always wondering what if.

    It’s great you also learnt some extra things about skill sets you can improve and exactly what your values/priorities are.

    Totally worth it in my humble opinion.

    • Hey Miss B! Also worth it to keep my head in the interview game. It was a bit embarrassing – the interviewer came out to get me just as I was giving my hands a surreptitious wipe on my pants legs – I had sweaty palms! I would like to strengthen my skills in that area, but I need to focus on just work for the next 6 months. I’ve started to enter the crazy period, which I can see will ramp up to insane between Christmas and Easter. I have to keep my head in the game there, and then I’ll be able to relax and re-evaluate.

      • Sounds like a plan. My top tip for interviewing is to practice, practice, practice. Be ready for any question they throw at you and be able to answer quickly with confidence. good luck for the crazy period ahead.

    • Yep. As someone who has recently had this experience yourself, I know you know what it’s like. It really was a massive amount of work. I could have had a whole 2 blog posts written and saved in the time it took me to prepare for that. 😀

  3. I think the best part is, you’re more at peace with your job and possibly know yourself better now 🙂

    And if I’m not mistaken, you just completed your long-held goal of a short post! Is it under 500 words?

    Congratulations!!! Streamers are now falling from the top of the page like a TV set, hehe.

    • We have a WINNAH! I was wondering if anyone would notice – yes, it was 499 words long. Excellent observational skills, SMA!

      I’m still surprised at the strength of the reaction I had when I was thinking about maybe considering possibly leaving. Every step I took down the hallways in the following days had the echo of “traitor” in my head. Mr. ETT said it sounded like the “shame” scene from GoT, and that’s really what it felt like. Of course, I will need reminding of this because work is going to do my head in over the next 6 months. I think it will be a good anchor for me when I get to the point I just want to chuck it all in. I can do it!

  4. That’s really good advice for us all-to be content where we are. I think that holds true even if we are still striving to improve ourselves or get a better job or whatever. We must have peace with where our lives are currently if we are to truly be happy. Otherwise we are always looking for tomorrow for our happiness.

    • Sometimes I feel like I do let myself get caught in this type of thinking with FI. I wonder if I’d be more content with my life if I’d never heard about it! It’s difficult to be striving for something so big, so life-changing, yet so far away. Then I remember that that reason I found FI in the first place is because I was feeling discontented with where I was. I loved that Tweet. I just have to put a little effort into making it reality.

  5. Nothing like actually doing something to clarify your path. Instead of going “what if”, now you definitely know. I too don’t think it was all for nothing, in fact I think you would have learnt a fair bit about yourself doing this process. So yay!

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