Six days after the job closed, I was offered an interview. Because I hate email, I don’t log in every day, which meant that:
- They sent me the invitation to interview on Tuesday afternoon.
- I opened it on Wednesday morning before work.
- The interview time was 10am Thursday!
The Job Interview
I was not expecting things to happen so quickly. I still had to go to work on Wednesday, so spent all my train trip time and lunch reviewing and preparing. That night I continued preparation, along with taking an hour to fill out all the paperwork.
I also had to ask/notify my referees. I’d been holding off, because if I didn’t get an interview it was a moot point and I didn’t want people to know. I approached the project manager in my current job, and he was shocked. I felt so bad; this had been what I was dreading. Nevertheless, he agreed to act for me. I also approached my old manager, who was fine, and encouraging. She reiterated what Mr. ETT has been saying, along with everyone who commented on my post, thank you.
The interview went well, but I felt like they needed someone stronger in a particular skill set. I have that skill set, but not at a high enough level for their needs. I was both disappointed and glad at the same time. It sounds like an exciting and challenging job, not to mention the conditions of being close to home and part-time. I left the interview and went to work for the rest of the day.
Was this whole exercise a waste of time and energy? It certainly got me thinking and worrying. I thought about it every single day after I applied. On reflection, I don’t believe it was a waste (except for the darn paperwork)! It’s given me an idea of where I need to develop if I want to pursue a similar job. It made me look hard at the job I currently have and realise that despite the travel and working full-time, I like what I do. I like my job. If I were to leave now, I’d be leaving something unfinished and I’ve discovered it is important to me not to do that. I appear to value following through on what I’ve stated I would do. It surprised me that I would value this more that “the perfect job”, but there you go. We’re always learning about ourselves.
Also, with great timing, a Bunny Buddhism tweet appeared that has helped me to process this.
I’m going to stick to my original plan. I don’t want to know about any more jobs until it fits my timeline. I’m going to concentrate on appreciating what I have, do my best to accomplish the task I’ve been employed to do, and let go of the carrot of part-time work for now. We’ll come back in 12 months time and see where I’m at. I’m letting go to find some peace.